12th House

It’s very hard to take relationships personally when you’re a mystic. Personal love is like a rabbit leading Alice down the hole. The rabbit really has nothing much to do with the story. But without the rabbit the journey would never begin. I’ve recently returned from a trip down the rabbit hole. And I’m realizing I will never fully return from that trip. I’d have to shrink down to size. I realize I can’t fit into the old framework, which is irritating. And I am done trying to shrink myself. It hurts.

I’ve been feeling really intolerant. Today, I googled “love and tolerance.” There’s already a blog post explaining it” “Tolerance is Resistance to Love.”

I don’t want people’s judgments anymore. Whether they think I am a good girl or a bad one. I’m in love with everything. And love is the most intolerant emotion of all. I’m not sure what that means for my lifestyle yet. But it’s apparent that my life has to change to fit me. I’ve already transformed.